That may have been a better title for my neglected blog. I had no idea what type of mixture my life would be turning into.
- Two forced moves.
- Heart Attack
- Hearing an NPR piece on viewing cities through evolutionary science.
- Taking an Americorps VISTA position in under 24 hours.
- Leaving the Container Store.
- Serving for an awesome year and a half with the Zeist foundation, working on community engagement and schools.
- Serving for half a year at East Atlanta Kids Club where I got to write grants, screen staff, and so much more.
- Started grad school at Georgia State University, working on a Master’s of Public Policy with a focus on social policy. I initially thought I wanted to do educational policy. Alas, I think we need a broader group to defeat the problems of poverty and big business.
- Immediately after starting the program, I got pregnant with twins. We lost one, who we named Jesse, at 11 weeks. Even with the grief and never ending morning sickness, I made it into the honor society.
- #3 joined us the summer after my first year and will surely benefit from all the advanced classwork.
- Since the baby threw off my two-year plan, I used the opportunity to take extra classes that appeal to my broader urban concerns. I fell in love with GIS because it is mapping–data and design.
- I also used the extra year to apply for a fellowship through the law school. I am an Urban Fellow with the Center for the Comparative Study of Metropolitan Growth. It has enriched my program and my life, complete with an intensive week studying and working in Barcelona.
- The other Capstone of my program is the actual Capstone class where we are doing some economic development planning for the City of Forest Park. I feel like I have not been able to meet my own high expectations, but our team is awesome –and I cannot say enough about the amazing Joseph F. Hacker, PhD and AICP.
- Jason is on track to be a Liuetenent. He will be wonderful, but boy the uncertainty and change in our house right now is scary.
- Right now, I am in a very tight spot where I have so much writing to wrap up in the next two weeks that I don’t know if I could handle it childless and single. I am trying to hope for the best, but prepare that I may not graduate in May. Some of my best colleagues are graduating in summer though so I wouldn’t be lonely at least.
- This is where my heart is out to get me. I had gone to a new cardiologist since the old one was very dismissive about the unbearable side effects I had. Being off meds was fine until this semester got so crazy. Now I am on a new BP med, which also gives me horrifying nightmares and isn’t keeping my BP below 140-50 over 105-10. Plus it gives me insomnia and ups my anxiety like nobody’s business. I do not have time for this trial and error stuff right now. My GP, unlike the other docs, got me in right away. I am now trying a third class of BP drugs. Fingers crossed.
- My head is telling me that of course, this is all my incompetence and that I never should have had kids, gone back to school, etc. Of course, I won’t graduate in May. I probably never will. No one will want to hire a mother of 3 with a firefighter husband. And speaking of those 3 kids, two of them have big time anxiety issues that I have to walk through with them. We will not be able to keep affording to rent in EAV. We won’t ever be able to buy a house.
FFS. This was supposed to be a quirky yet ultimately uplifting summary of my day.